“What happened?”
Crill asked immediately.
Jac sat with them,
wrapping his arms around his knees and resting his chin on them. “Fin’s dad said he’s safe.”
When he stopped
there, Crill elbowed him. “And?”
“And, I’m not sure
what to think. Emre said Fin wasn’t
expecting me as his match. Which is kind
of what you said, Crill, but I still don’t understand. I’m really thinking he doesn’t want me.”
“But that’s not
what Emre said, right?” Sera clarified.
“No, he said what
I told you, and that Fin would come to me after he did some necessary things,
although I don’t know what those are.”
“Maybe he’s
figuring out how to approach you?” Sera suggested.
“Yes, that’s a
good observation,” Crill agreed.
“What’s to figure
out?” Jac questioned.
“Well, maybe Fin
didn’t expect to match with a boy,” Crill proposed. “It’s not unusual to be matched like that,
but it’s the less common combination.
Maybe that’s what put his wings in a tizzy.”
Jac hadn’t
considered that, and thinking back on his own meeting with the Bond Guard, he
had also been surprised at discovering Fin was his match. He hadn’t expected a boy either. “Maybe,” he conceded.
“Are you going to
seek him out?” Sera asked. “Did Emre
tell you where he was?”
Jac shook his
head. “Emre said he’d tell him where I could
be found and that Fin would come to me.”
“Oh, that’s
right. You did say that,” Sera
remembered. “Do you know when he’s
coming?”
“No, and…” he
looked somewhat reluctantly at his friends, “could I stay with you until
then? I don’t…I just feel like I can’t
sleep at my place until Fin’s with me.
It’s supposed to be for us.”
“Of course you can
stay,” Crill declared, and Sera was nodding without hesitation.
“You can be there
anytime, you know that,” she told him.
He breathed a sigh
of relief. “I don’t want to crowd you,
but thank you.”
Jac didn’t really
know what to say after that, since he honestly was at the point that he didn’t
want to discuss his distressing situation anymore. He stood after a few minutes and fluttered
his wings enough to lift him off his feet while addressing his friends. “I’ll be flying. See you tonight?”
The couple nodded
and he took off without looking back to them, thinking they might want to
continue from where he’d interrupted.
He flew through
the now-familiar surroundings. It was
easy to see why his kind dubbed this area as Apple Hollow. More than twenty healthy apple trees grew in
this patch, although they weren’t the only fruit to be found. A half dozen sweet cherry trees mingled in
amongst the apples, and a strong patch of earth on the outskirts of the trees
hosted lush blueberry bushes. The scent
of the fruits was rich and mouthwatering.
With an
experienced eye, Jac checked each individual tree, making sure they were
healthy, and used his inner magic to heal small scars or remove harmful insects
to places they couldn’t damage. He loved
being a Nature Nurturer, and seeing healthy fruit and flowers were things he
never took for granted.
When he’d done all
he could amongst the trees, he flew further out, toward a place he was fairly
sure no other fairies neared. It was a
placed Jac indulged his fairy curiosity more than he perhaps should, but it was
also a place that held memories with Fin.
Flying carefully
to make extra sure he wouldn’t be seen by those who couldn’t be trusted, he
neared his destination and kept his eyes peeled for a sight that was sometimes
there and sometimes not. This time his
gaze quickly found what he was looking for—the flimsy little house the humans,
Matt and Ricky, lived in when they came to the fairy woods.
Since coming
across these two with Fin the first time, Jac had sporadically returned to this
location, both out of curiosity of the human creatures, and to make sure they
didn’t wander too close to the densest parts of the forest where the fairy
communities were. The two human males
weren’t always here when Jac checked, but he had noticed that they came and
stayed for one or more nights about every other moon cycle. Although, the visits had increased
lately. He’d seen them spend two or
three nights here four times over the last six weeks. He wasn’t sure what to think about that, but
since they never wandered terribly far from their portable house, he didn’t
feel there was any danger about them being there.
Another reason he
kept returning to check on them was his own curiosity over their
relationship. It was clear they were
mates, and what Crill had said to Jac was true—matched-gender matings weren’t
unusual in fairy culture, but they weren’t the most common pairing either. Jac knew a few couples like that both in the
section of forest where he grew up and in Apple Hollow, but he didn’t know them
well, and wasn’t comfortable asking them anything. He knew he couldn’t ask the human mates
either, but he could observe them—which he did as often as he was able.
In some ways, he
almost felt like he knew Matt and Ricky as well as Crill and Sera. He listened to their conversations and
watched how they interacted. They kissed
and touched in similar ways that fairy mates did. Although, they did have some activities that
were very odd to Jac.
He’d been a bit
frightened the first time he witnessed some of those activities, but he now
understood them to be punishments. They
were very different from fairy discipline.
When disobedient or disrespectful, younger fairies were usually punished
by having their wings grounded or their flying boundaries restricted.
Matt and Ricky
seemed to do a similar version of those as well, but they did more. Jac observed that Ricky deferred to Matt,
although Jac didn’t fully understand why, and that Matt decided on consequences
when a wrong was done. It had seemed
strange to Jac that Matt sometimes made Ricky stand so close to a tree that it
would have made Jac’s eyes cross, and Ricky had to stay there and stare at the
tree until Matt said he was done. At
first, Jac thought there might have been something special about the tree, but
it wasn’t always the same tree Ricky was forced to stare at, so he knew that
assumption was wrong.
Other times Matt
gave a book to Ricky—Jac was very proud that he’d learned what a book was since
fairies had nothing like them!—and told him to put special words on the book’s
insides. Jac still wished he understood
the magic that made those odd symbols appear in the book when Ricky moved his
hand over it. He would have loved to know
how to do that! Although, Ricky seemed
to find the activity tedious and he whined about doing it quite a bit. Jac
didn’t like that part. The whining
irritated him, and he usually left soon after Ricky started that particular
endeavor.
The activity that
had frightened Jac though was the one that always made Ricky, and even Matt
sometimes, cry. Occasionally, Matt would
remove the clothing from around Ricky’s legs and make him lay across his
lap. Then Matt would smack Ricky’s rump
over and over until it turned red.
Usually he used his hand to do this, but a couple times he’d used a
fallen tree limb or a strange flat object from inside their tent.
Jac did not
understand why Ricky did not run away when Matt said he was going to get a
spanking—the strange word that always preceded the rump smacking—when it
clearly hurt both of them. Sometimes Ricky
did argue about not deserving to be spanked, but he never ran away or seemed
afraid of Matt. In fact, whenever Matt
ended the smacking, the two of them hugged and held each other for a long time
afterward. It was like they loved each
other more at that time, and Jac still didn’t understand it, although he was
coming to believe that it did seem to do something good for the two humans’
relationship.
Now, as he drew
closer to the little house, he looked and listened carefully for Matt and
Ricky. There were no shadows moving
about in their shelter, so he knew they weren’t in there. There was, however, the stone circle the
young men always arranged to contain their fire, and the bags he usually saw
them carry on their backs were on the ground by the stones. He waited, hidden amongst the leaves of a
tree, for the humans to show.
It was only a few
minutes before the crunch of dried leaves under footsteps preceded Matt and
Ricky’s arrival. They were holding hands
and laughing at something, which made Jac feel warm inside. They broke apart when they reached their fire
circle. Matt squatted down and began
assembling twigs and then small logs within the stones. Jac watched Ricky grab their two bags and
take them into the flimsy house, then come back out with a couple small items
in his hands.
“Matches or
lighter, Matt?” Ricky asked.
“Matches. It’s dry enough that I don’t think we’d waste
one. Want hot dogs or ‘poor man’s
spaghetti’?”
“Spaghetti. The hot dogs are still frozen, and I’m too
hungry to wait for them to thaw.”
“Me too. Get out the pot and the one of the water jugs
then while I get the fire started.”
The two of them
easily moved around each other, seeming to Jac to know what the other was doing
or needed without a lot of words shared.
Matt put a pile of strange, skinny sticks into the pot of water when it
boiled, and they became soft and kind of wormlike in Jac’s opinion. Then he poured the water out of the pot and
replaced it with a container of something red that smelled like tomatoes. The scent was mouth-watering in a few minutes
and Jac wished he could try the food that the two humans were soon scarfing
down.
After they ate,
they cleaned up from their meal, and then Matt began pressing his body closer
to Ricky’s. Jac watched with a mix of
fascination and jealousy as Matt nuzzled at Ricky’s neck, and then began
kissing Ricky’s jaw, slowly moving toward his mouth.
It was clear Ricky
was enjoying the attentions by the sighs and soft moans that passed through his
lips. When the two young men started to
remove each other’s clothes, Jac knew it was time for him to leave. They deserved privacy when they shared their
bodies with one another, although Jac could admit in his head that a burning
curiosity in him sometimes tempted him to stay.
Like all fairies, what he knew about a mated couple’s private
relationship came from what his parents had told him the night before his Bond
Guard meeting, and from the Bond Guard himself.
Everything else would have to be learned between him and his mate.
Those thoughts
brought his mind very quickly to Fin, and his heart again felt a heaviness as
he flew to Crill and Sera’s home. Would
he ever share the sweetnesses a couple explored with one another in
private? Would he ever laugh with Fin as
Matt and Ricky did with one another, or as Crill and Sera did? Would he ever even get to share the house
he’d made for Fin?
That house he now
stood in front of. He had been so
hopeful when building this dwelling.
He’d made their home at the base of a strong forest tree with deep
roots; a tree unlikely to release from its foundation from either strong winds
or flooding waters. A tree with a wide
enough trunk that Jac had been able to hollow out sections of its insides to
create multiple rooms and levels without damaging its health. A tree that neighbored the one Crill and Sera
had built their home into.
Jac hoped that Fin
would enjoy Crill and Sera’s company as he did, and that his mate would be
happy to have them as neighbors. For
nearly the last year he’d daydreamed as he’d worked, and often thought of the
ways he and Fin would spend their days—working together as a Nurturer and Earth
Reader, sharing meals and games with Crill and Sera, exploring new and old
places in the forest, and maybe even traveling a bit further to places neither
of them had been.
He sighed and turned
his back on his own front door, moving nearly silently to his friends’
home. Better to enter this one filled
with companionship than the empty residence his house currently was.
*****
*****
Fin had gone home
after his evening with Luna. The
decision was made partly to keep his parents from worrying, and partly to keep
himself from staying near a future that wasn’t meant for him. It wasn’t surprising to see both his parents
were awake, and despite the late hour, he told them of his conversation with
Luna. He’d been hugged and comforted,
but he still wasn’t the happiest of fairies.
“Will you go to
Jacoby now,” his mother had asked.
It had taken him a
moment of consideration, but he nodded.
“I need to apologize to him, and to explain. I’m not sure what to do after that though.”
“What do you
mean?” his mom questioned.
“I just…I don’t
know how to stop loving Luna and connect with Jac,” he confessed, and felt
ashamed of his feelings. “What if he
doesn’t want me to be his mate after I ran away like I did?”
His father
answered in confidence. “Jacoby has been
waiting a long time for his chance to be matched with you. I do not believe he will just push you
aside. The two of you need time
together, and if it is difficult you can speak to me as a Cultivator, or even
go back to the Bond Guard for advice.
That is part of his role, as I’m sure he said to you.”
Fin nodded slowly
and thoughtfully. “He did…but I still
need to speak to Jac first.”
“You do,” Emre
agreed, and proceeded to tell Fin exactly where Jac had been living. “I told him you’d come to him after making
your necessary changes, and you’d be wise not to delay in offering your
apology. When do you plan to go?”
“Tomorrow,” Fin
decided, although he was tempted to put it off.
“Good,” his
parents said unanimously.
“I’ll make a
hearty breakfast for you in the morning before you leave. Don’t even think of flying off without
eating,” his mother warned.
The following
morning, Fin’s nose said the breakfast his mother cooked would taste wonderful,
but anxiety was making his stomach feel as squirmy as a bug in a
spiderweb. He managed a portion of sweet
potato hash and mint water, but stopped there.
With hugs from his parents, and a few more words of advice from his
father, he started on his way to Apple Hollow.
Despite knowing he
shouldn’t keep Jac waiting longer than necessary, Fin couldn’t help flying
slower than was typical for him. He
tried to work out an apology as he flew, and an explanation, but neither was
coming easy to him.
Eventually, the
sweet scent of ripe apples tickled his nose, and he knew he had to be very
close to his destination. Soon the copse
of apple trees his father spoke of came into sight, and he admired and enjoyed
the time it took to fly through them.
Just beyond the grove there was a small meadow of tall grasses and
flowers, and Fin offered hellos to the bees and butterflies that were enjoying
the nectar of the floras. He didn’t linger
though, but continued on into another grouping of trees, denser than the small
orchard he’d just gone through, and set his sights for the oldest and tallest
trees he could find. It was among them
that he’d find the fairy community where Jac had been living.
In a short while,
signs of fairy life could be seen. He
saw several lovely homes, blended so well into the environment that only those
familiar with them would recognize the abodes that they were. A gourd garden also caught his eye in one
section, and he quickly realized the dozen or so of the fleshy fruits had been
hollowed out and were being used as food storage facilities. Fin had heard that some communities were
starting to do such things to make sure no fairy or animal went without during
droughts or cold seasons. He was tempted
to take a closer look at the gourds, but forced himself to turn away. Finding Jac was more important.
Very soon he heard
the voices of fairies, and he smiled as his eyes landed on a group of young
ones swinging on vines and shouting to each other. Not far away, their parents were chatting and
watching the children. He chose not to
pull their attention away from the playing kids and flew further on.
He soon came
across another fairy at the same time that his Reader-senses picked up on the
faintest scent of old smoke. He
immediately followed his instincts to the ground where the other fairy was
patting a patch of earth that had clearly been victim to a fire. Compassion welled in him as he knelt down and
began soothing the ash-laden earth as the other boy was doing.
“What happened,”
he asked with quiet respect to the other fairy, while they both dug their
fingers into the dirt and massaged its vulnerable depths.
“Lightning
strike,” the young man murmured. “Over a
year ago now.” He glanced toward
Fin. “You a Reader?”
Fin nodded, half
his attention on the fairy and half on the ground beneath him. “The depths are healing, I can tell, but it
was a deep wound.”
“Yes. The struck tree did not survive it, but we’ve
planted a seed of his, and we hope that an heir from his branches will renew a
foundation here and grow strong. I’ve
been coming frequently to encourage the ground’s healing.”
Fin let his
fingers sink deeper into the soil. There
was clearly still a lot of the deathly ash of the lost tree in the dirt, but in
the deeper parts, Fin felt the underlying health of good earth.
Concentrating his
senses, he sought for the planted seed and rejoiced when the soil spoke to him,
guiding him to the embryonic tree.
“Yes, there you
are,” he whispered. “Are you
growing? Have you needs?”
He listened
carefully, and then shifted his attention briefly to the other fairy. “Have you water?”
The young man, who
appeared around Fin’s age, nodded. “Is
it thirsty?”
“Yes, but don’t
offer the drink to the top layer. It’s
still mostly ash.”
His companion
looked confused. “How can we water the
seed then?”
“I’ll show you,”
Fin told him. “Just give me one
moment…”
He returned his
concentration to the earth and young seed in its depths, and then gave a
determined nod. “Poor the water over
me. I’ll guide it down to where it needs
to go.”
Looking confused
but trusting, the boy lifted a walnut bucket and poured it slowly over Fin’s
body. Fin shivered once at its chill,
but then used his energies to guide the droplets down his body and follow his
fingers into the earth, until they soaked the soil that surrounded the young
seed. He had the other fairy soak him
two more times before he knew enough had gone into the ground.
“Good. His thirst is quenched for now, but we may
need to do it again another day.”
The fairy looked
at him in awe. “How did you know how to
do that? The earth has been asking me
for water whenever I’ve come, and I’ve always given it, but just on the top
layer. How did you know it wasn’t going
deeper and how to get it there?”
“I only knew it
wasn’t getting past the top layer because the earth told me. But I learned the way to guide the water
deeper from a Water Watcher friend of mine named Lorelei. I’m glad I could help.”
“You really did,
and maybe you could help me learn to do that.”
The fairy then fluttered his wings in the greeting of welcome offered to
unfamiliar faces and introduced himself.
“I’m Dani.”
“I’m Fin, and sure
I’ll show you how to water the earth like that, but I can’t right now. I’m looking for someone.”
“Who? I know most everyone in Apple Hollow.”
“Do you know
Jacoby? He didn’t grow up here, but I
was told he’s been living here recently.”
“Jac? Yeah, I know him!” Dani exclaimed. “He came right after the fire that took out
this tree and has been helping the Nurturers.
He’s usually off with Crill. If
you fly to that group of three boulders over there, and then turn left, you’ll
find Crill’s place. He’s got a white
pebble path leading up to his door.”
“Thanks! See you around?”
“Definitely,” Dani
agreed, and waved as Fin took off.
It didn’t take Fin
long at all to find the home Dani directed him to. The front door was built directly into a healthy-looking
tree, with a small roof of twigs and dried daisies providing a shade over the
entrance, and a fairy with chestnut brown hair and strong-looking arms appeared
to be securing the white pebbles making a path toward the door more solidly in
place.
“Excuse me? Are you Crill?” Fin asked as he landed next
to the stones. The fairy looked up,
offering a smile to Fin in greeting, and dusting off his hands as his stood
from where he’d been kneeling.
“Hello, and yes, I
am.” He gave the fluttered wing greeting Dani had offered, which Fin
automatically returned. “What can I do
for you?”
“I’m looking for
Jacoby Floraman and was told you often work with him. Could you tell me where to find him?”
A bit of Crill’s
smile faded. “Jac’s been flying a little
further afield than normal for a couple days.
I’m afraid I don’t know where exactly though. I’ll see him this evening, so I can let him
know you were looking for him if you’re not able to wait.”
There was a
temptation in Fin to return to his parents and put off the difficult
conversation he’d come to have, but he wasn’t sure he’d come back if he
returned to his home forest. He needed
to follow through.
“I’ll wait,” he
decided, thinking he might go back to Dani and see about helping the other
fairy with learning the trick to watering deeper earth. However, Crill changed those plans quickly.
“You’re Fin,
aren’t you?” he said, his voice making it sound more like a statement than a
question.
Wide-eyed with
surprise, Fin nodded. “How did you
know?”
Crill’s gaze on
him was now more scrutinizing than Fin was comfortable with. “Jac’s my best friend,” the brown-haired
fairy stated. “He confided in me about
who his mate was to be a few weeks ago, and he was staying with me when your
dad found him.”
Before Fin could
be upset about that news, Crill continued.
“I’m also the one who found him sobbing from a broken heart when you
rejected him.” He crossed his arms over
his chest. “Are you going to hurt him
again?”
Fin couldn’t look
the fairy in the face, which Crill took as an answer.
“Why are you even
here if you plan to hurt him? How cruel
a fairy can you be?!”
“No, I don’t want
to hurt him!” Jac defended. “But I have
to explain to him, and…I don’t know how he’ll react.”
Crill didn’t
soften his gaze. “Explain what?”
“That I didn’t
reject…or, I didn’t mean it to look like that.
But,” he sighed, his voice growing softer. “I have to talk to him.”
“Crill?” a
feminine voice interrupted before either one could say anything else. They both looked toward the home’s front
door. A pretty fairy with pale yellow
hair and wings that matched stood there.
“Invite him inside, Crill,” she ordered, although the words were sweet
and without judgment toward either man.
“We were told he would come to Jac, and it’s good that he has arrived so
soon.”
Crill’s protective
posturing for his friend eased. He
looked back at Fin and nodded. “My mate
is right,” he said with less accusation and more affability in his tone. “And so are you. You need to talk to Jac and he to you. He’s been staying his nights with us and
you’re welcome to wait in our home until he returns.”
“Thank you,” Fin
accepted, although he was sure his face and wings had to be blushing with the disgrace
he felt. “Perhaps…maybe I could help you
with this,” he motioned toward the stones Crill had been working on, “before we
go inside.”
Crill hesitated
for a long moment, but then nodded. “The
help would be appreciated. They’ve
loosened a bit since I positioned them, and I don’t want them to wash away when
heavy rains start.”
Fin quickly got to
work, using some tricks as an Earth Reader to harden the dirt around the stones
and make their positioning firmer. He
tried to subtly watch Crill while they worked, wishing he knew more about this
fairy who claimed to be Jac’s best friend.
He also wished Crill hadn’t said something that was now digging at Fin’s
conscience.
That persistent
digging eventually drove him to speak.
“Did you really find Jac crying?” he asked, his voice so quiet that he
couldn’t be sure Crill would hear him.
But the other fairy must have been waiting for Fin to say something.
“Sobbing,” he
corrected a bit harshly, but then tempered his tone when he saw Fin’s eyes fill
with regret, although he remained honest.
“I found him sitting outside the house he’d been working on for months
to make a home for the two of you, crying like his heart was shattered. He told me you didn’t want him, that you ran
away from him.”
Fin’s wings wilted
with shame. “I never meant to hurt Jac,”
he said wretchedly. “I just didn’t
expect him.”
“Your father said
the same thing,” Crill told him. “What
did you expect?”
Fin shook his head
and managed to look Crill in the eye. “I
need to explain that to Jac first.”
With a sigh, Crill
nodded. “You’re right. Why don’t you come inside now? I’m sure Sera will have something cold to
drink for us. I expect Jac will show up
around sunset. You and he are welcome to
stay and eat with us.”
Hoping that offer might include some forgiveness for hurting Jac, Fin
offered a sincere thank you and followed his host inside.